[Haruhi is seen on the screen, beads of sweat slowly dripping down her forehead and cheeks, a panicked and almost wild look in her eyes]

I... I... don't know... why I did that...

[tears filling up her eyes slowly]

They surrounded us. All I heard was someone yelling to run, and I ran.
It must've been in the other direction... it had to have been...

I'm alone.

It seems... that no matter how prepared you think you may be... you never truly are.
I had been told countless times of the maze and what it most likely would contain, seeing it with my own eyes has been an experience in and of itself. Despite that I was afraid at first, I find myself calming down - perhaps being told in advance did curve some of that.

... then again being with three others might've done the trick.
So for all those worried about us - Frederic, Maes, Kanna, and I are fine... and all of us are together, which helps. I suppose it was fate that led us all together in one place before the maze struck.

( Screened to... Alto, Lyserg, Miharu, Silver, Ino, Demyx )


What was... --- damn.
[voice fading away a bit]
Frederic, Uncle Maes! There's another one over there!

It seems I've begun annoying some people...
I... apologize so much for that.

I suppose that I'm just starting to feel a little homesick. I shouldn't be, I mean I have a wonderful love in my life now, and some of the best friends a girl could ever want. However... I wish I was able to show this to my Dad, show him how much I've been doing. The more I think on things others have told me about him being proud of me, the more I realize they're right.
I miss him...
... and others...

Perhaps moving Frederic in added onto my stress - any moving day is stressful.
It'll be worth all the trouble once things quiet down and we get settled though.

But that's no excuse for my behavior.
So... without further delay...

( Private to Blaze//Hackable )


( Private to Orihime//Hackable )


( Private to Zexion//Hackable )


( Private to Tomoe//Unhackable )


( Private to Kanna//Hackable )


( Private to Frederic//Hackable )

I tried a new recipe today. I found a cookbook at the library that contained recipes from all over the world I'm from. It was a great find for me, as it only contained recipes for different cupcakes. Regardless it was a full 215 pages long, and I was only able to copy down a couple recipes before it got too late.
This recipe in particular seemed good to me. It uses moist dark chocolate cake, a delicious espresso-flavored whipped frosting, and I even topped it off with some large chocolate drops (I made those too!). The chocolate pieces have some nuts in them, but I find that enhances the flavor even more.
Oh here, let me show you!

I unsure if it's due to... Frederic... or perhaps another reason that I feel so strange recently. I know I haven't felt this alive before, even when I was hosting - something had always felt missing. Now... I feel almost completed.

I shouldn't feel this way, not with the rumors circulating of a few disappearances of late. I hate to say that I wasn't too familiar with alot of the people that vanished but... I should be a little more concerned, shouldn't I?
I mean, it could've been Frederic, Ino, Lyserg, Miharu... any of them. Or me.

I dunno, I guess I have a theory as to why the Creator picks and chooses them, but I'm sure everyone does.
I mean, some of us are making the best of things - accepting them even. We settle down into homes, open businesses, shop and decorate, hold events and parties, gain friendships... romances...
If someone was populating a city with kidnapped individuals, wouldn't that person WANT us to adjust? Maybe he's sending back the ones that just make things harder by always trying to find an escape.

Yes, I wouldn't mind finding a way out of here one day...
... but I don't know.
We're from different times... I'd never see him again. It's not like... things are hard here either, right?
... am I wrong for not wanting to return to my old life?

I have so many new friends here, a new life for myself. I have a new confidence in myself that  I never had before.
I love my father, senpai, the others in the host club... but... I'm happy here.
Is that why I'm still here? That I've accepted my place in Paradisim?

I feel very restless. I guess all of this cooking isn't doing very much for me - I made five different lunch meals today alone, just trying to give myself something to do. I'm anxious...
I think I need to find something to do with my hands, or something a bit more serious to busy my time with.

( Private, Unhackable, but purposely viewable only to Dr. Tomoe )

[quite obvious anger in her voice]

You know, when I took this apartment I thought, 'Hey this will be great! I'm near all the businesses, I'll enjoy it!'.
I had no idea I was going to live beneath two sets loud, destructive, ignorant people.

There's always someone yelling and screaming above me, usually a deeper male voice, or a woman's voice doing it. Others won't scream unless screamed at it seems... but.... it echoes throughout the entire building and it makes me sleep worse than the thunderstorms did. I swear I've heard weapons fire before...
A couple days ago people were playing hopscotch.

Today... today there was this loud thud and I swear there was some sort of explosion about three days ago. Also my ceiling is leaking... did someone leave the water on up there? I didn't appreciate having very cold water hit my face when I was in the middle of a fantastic dream...

I really need to get a better place.... before I'm killed in crossfire, a freak accident, or off myself from insanity or something. A quieter place.




(ooc: ... post made in good humor? XD I've also been informed that despite that an Organization member said the apartments were in the south, they're in the north, so I got my info all screwed up.)

I had the strangest dream this morning, once I was finally able to get to sleep from the storms.
I was all alone in a desert, with cracked earth underneath my feet, but no cactus or anything anywhere to be found, just flat landscape everywhere. I decided I was going to run until I reached the horizon. So I began to run.
I ran for hours, days, weeks, months, and even years, and no matter how long I ran, I never reached the horizon - as the horizon isn't an actual THING you can reach. I finally crumpled to the ground, then I woke up.
I don't know what it meant... but I usually don't have dreams like that. I wish I had some sort of creative talent like Frederic does to express the dream in a way other than just saying it. Maybe by painting, or playing an instrument... but I was never instructed in anything like that.

Speaking of Frederic...
Thank you all for being so concerned about me... even people who are only his friends or acquaintances but thought to say something to me. I appreciate all of you for your kindness - I'll never forget it. Things are fine now for the most part - we seem to be at a place we agree on and both of us are happy with it.

(strained voice, with a 'hic' sound occasionally from tears)

I hate this place. These storms are terrible, the loud explosion-like sounds make my head hurt. I can't sleep... then again I don't think I'd sleep well even if these storms were gone.

I miss Senpai... it would be right about now that he'd dash in out of nowhere, whisk me into his arms, and tell me everything was going to be okay again. I never thought I'd miss that. I always thought it was strange, weird, or... annoying.
But I miss it now.

... "all wounds heal in time", that's what Dad always told me. I hope he's right.

I'm not... mad at him. I'm mad at myself for not seeing it. I got so caught up in high-strung emotions and feelings that I lost sight of what the other person was feeling.
... she better appreciate him. She's a fool for not appreciating him at this very moment. He's the most caring man I've ever met, girls from my time would kill for a chance at even just his friendship.

I'll be okay...
It's just these stupid storms...

[very desperate, almost angry tone - with elevated volume]

How many... of you have I spoken to that have been here since long before I was dropped off in this... place....?!
I know one of you spoke briefly about it, but why is it that none of you told me the full extent of this... MAZE... thing that overtakes the city? None of you realize I have no physical skills, training, weapons... anything to protect me? Nothing...

[pause with a deep breath]

I'm really upset about it... more fearful than anything. What if I'm stranded when it happens again?
... I don't think my optimism's going to work anymore... it seems to be slipping away the longer I'm here, and the more I find out about these sorts of things.

I just wish one of the people I've already grown to love and trust had just told me, rather than a complete stranger giving me all these details...



[ooc: wasn't going to make a post so soon after my other one, but this seemed pressing enough to make into one, since it's mega-plot related, right?]

[screen flickers a few times, followed by rapid movement an a fuzzy screen as the communicator is moved about]

[everything settles, the interior of an apartment now seen behind the brunette girl on camera as she smiles brightly]

Hello Paradisim, and my friends! Now you get to see exact what I look like, fun right? Hope I didn't disappoint too badly. [laugh]

Anyway. I found myself a wonderful place here in the Business District, it's not the most fancy thing, but I like it. It just needs some decoration, maybe some paint? No idea where I'd get that here, but I'm sure if we are given anything we want, that I'll find something somewhere. I could always paint some pictures for the walls too with it - I'm sure this place will be perfect.
[glances around the place with a quick nod before smiling at the screen again]

I'm thinking of having a little housewarming-ish party here, maybe meet some of you people that I've been spending all this time talking to on communicator. I'll have food to eat, and we can all just hang out through the evening. It's good to just take a break and clear your head now and then, right?
It's funny... I'm exciting at the thought of hosting a party again... then again it was a huge part of my life before, it only stands to reason why I'd be so happy. Maybe I need to do these more often... everyone's so distressed, sad, and even angry about being stuck here, and are using up all their energy trying to get out. If people would just, I dunno, take more breaks and have some fun, then they could clear their heads and be able to come up with an easier way to escape.
All work and no play leads to disaster.

So, just RSVP with me here if interested! [another bright, happy smile before it clicks off]

You know, as much as I like this inn, or maybe even sleeping under the stars night after night, I think I've been too spoiled to appreciate it. Time to look for a place to live, since people are telling me that I'm not going anywhere for awhile. That's just great... but when life gives you lemons...

The business section of town looks nice, I might look for a place to live there, and maybe a job to pass the time while I'm at it. Eh I must've gotten too accustomed to having something to do every afternoon...
Gives me tons of experience with the service industry... Tamaki would just die if he heard me acknowledge something good coming out of our agreement.

I hope father isn't worried about me.

How do I --- ack!
(nearly dropping the electronic device in her hand)
I guess this symbol means it's recording?

... Hi, to... anyone that can hear or see this.
Maybe someone can help me. I don't know where I am...
(turns to look around suspiciously and faces the device again) ... how I got here, or how I get back. Somebody please...

(desperation grows in her voice)
I'm really lost. I don't think I've ever been this far from home in my life...

(taking in a heavy breath and releases it in a body-shaking shudder)
P-please. Somebody.
... Tamaki? Hikaru? Kaoru? ... any of you...
Anyone at all.
I don't like... being alone in strange places like this. With nobody I know. Everyone I've seen so far just looks and keeps walking, like it's some casual occurance to have someone just... drop out of nowhere like that.

(breathing quickens as panic sets in)
What if I never get home? What if I've been kidnapped?!
I just...
I want to be with my friends again...

(video lingers as she tries to find out how to turn it off, then snaps to black)

Below are various songs connected to others with Haruhi.
BE AWARE I am a nerd? Yes?
If you have a suggestion for one, just lemme know ♥




Frederic
- "Run To Me" - Clay Aiken


Alto
- "You Owe Me Nothing in Return" - Alanis Morissette


Paradisim
- "White Houses" - Vanessa Carlton
- "Don't You Forget About Me" - New Found Glory